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One fine summer afternoon, I was in the shower, washing my hair and contemplating on a "Top 5 List". Creating one suddenly seemed like a good idea. The problem was what I would make it about. Dancing? nah. Writing? nah. Beauty? nah. Fashion? not really good at that... Being emo? What's there to write about...?

Then I thought about myself and how this list would reflect me. So, I looked in deep and confessed just how messed-up I am. 

The Top 5 Ways to Screw-Up

1. Expect

Have you ever heard of the saying, "Expectations lead to disappointments"? It's true. You can never expect things because expecting means having a bias. Expectations could be selfish, thoughtless and heartless.  To begin with, life is never fair. It isn't like Burger King, wherein you can always "have it your way". And we have to realize, things happen because they're meant to happen. You can't write your entire destiny. 

2. Drunk call someone

The most stupid thing you can ever do is drown all your sorrows with alcohol and call people. Stop it. People don't need to know and feel sorry for you. Your slurred text messages and speech won't earn their hearts back and neither can they change fate. Its embarrassing. 

3. Boundaries

Sometimes, things are right in front of you and yet you refuse to take it all in. Why? Because you'd rather shut yourself out from it. You'd rather protect yourself than get lost in it. Often, we forget to live and let go. No man is an island. "Walls" aren't exactly cool and people do get tired from climbing them. In love, nothing is more exasperating than knowing that your partner can't let you all the way in. Nothing is half-baked in love. 

4. Reflect on the past...over and over and over and over again

There's a reason why it's called the PAST. It happened. No need to bring it up again. KTNXBYE!

5. Give-up

Whether you're giving up your dreams, giving up on someone or giving up on yourself...just, DON'T. Believe that everything will get better, because it really will. And remember, "Nothing worth having ever comes easy". We know how bad we want something, but sadly, the minute something bad happens, we forget everything we ever believe in. 

My top 5 list is based on my personal experience of screwing people over. Sadly, when you screw people over, you screw yourself over. 

Lessons learned.